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MORE COLUMNS BY MARIANE HOLBROOK
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REDEFINING MARRIAGE
John never formally asked me to marry him. Does that mean
I'm not legally married? I think at some point in our budding
relationship a trillion years ago he just assumed ownership. I
don't even remember him getting down on one knee to beg for my
hand. I do remember him talking to my father, though, and Dad
promising him a new BMW to get me outta the house.
Some people have an unorthodox view of engagements, anyway.
When my mom held out her hand for Grandma to see her new
engagement ring, Grandma scoffed, "Why don't you take it out
and bury it?" I don't think the engagement party made any
headlines.
But being married is a trip. It's not for the fainthearted
which is why fifty percent of married couples hock their
wedding rings at Big Jim's Pawn Shop
Truth be known, I'd probably enjoy being a bigamist or
trigamist or quadramist or whatever. How can one man can be
expected to wear all the different hats his wife requires?
For instance, when it comes to being a handy man around the
house, John makes a terrific science teacher. I could use a
second husband for fixin' things. John could own every single
tool made by Craftsman and still not have the right screw
driver to fix our sagging screen door. But that's okay. He
stuck a half-inch block of wood under the door and propped it
up just fine. Maybe someday we'll be able to use the door
again.
I could also use a mechanically inclined husband; not in
place of John but in addition to him. One who could actually
fix the engine screech and not just cover it with an entire
can of Pam cooking spray, hoping to find the noisy part.
My Mechanic Husband would wash the car and polish it every
Saturday, vacuum it out and wash all the windows 'til they
shone like glass (which I sorta think they're supposed to do
anyway). John's idea of a car wash is to soap the car down in
the driveway and wait for heavy rains to come during the night
to rinse it off. The next morning he'll open the car doors and
let the wind blow the car trash onto our neighbor's yard.
Maybe that's why we never get a Christmas card from our picky
neighbors.
My new Mechanic Husband would also keep the gas tank full
and not ride on fumes for 400 miles hoping to find a mom and
pop station where gas is one cent cheaper.
I could use a Fastidious Husband, too, in addition to John.
I wanna guy who gets his jollies dusting blinds and vacuuming
under chairs and cleaning piano keys with Q-tips, a man who
regularly cleans the ceiling fan blades, pulls out the stove
to remove any dust behind it, and scrubs bathroom grout with a
discarded toothbrush. While he's at it, he might as well learn
to cook Thai food and serve it to us with pomp and
circumstance and a crisp white linen towel draped over his
folded arm, cuz when I dine, I like to DINE.
No state marriage license should be issued until the
husband wins a chiropractic certificate or at least a
masseur's certificate. I need a husband who can crack back
bones, move my muscles around and pour Ahava lotion by the
gallon onto my beach-dried skin. And it would help if he'd
hire a little Japanese boy to walk on my back every day, too.
Yeah, I could be a quadrigamist with no problem, but I
don't want John to have the same privilege.
Color me chicken.
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REVIVE US AGAIN
I don’t think God had teenagers in mind when he invented
revival meetings.
Or maybe he did.
As a boy-crazy, not-too-tightly-wound early teen, I
wouldn’t have missed revival services in our small church for
anything. Every year the pastor scheduled spring and fall
revivals for the purpose of revving up the troops, giving them
a second wind, and hoping in the meantime that a few sinners
might stumble head first into the church, seek repentance, and
join the ranks.
These were “Fire and Brimstone” meetings; Jonathan Edwards’
“Sinners In The Hands Of An Angry God” services; “Stand Up,
Shape Up or Ship Out” gatherings that yielded impressive
results for the adults but left the teenagers staring in
bewildered incomprehension.
The problem was, we were looking at revivals through an
entirely different lens. We were at that awkward age where we
were too old to wet the bed and too young to drive a car.
Which made us exactly the right age for revival services.
We arrived early to occupy the back rows, grabbing the blue
hymnals to fill in all the o’s and a’s, and writing notes to
each other on the offering envelopes while waiting for
something to send us into gales of laughter. If nothing
materialized, we could always use our tweezers to pull the
young hairs out of the boy’s legs next to us.
But we could almost always count on Miss Bertie to provide
entertainment for us. The minute the sermon began, Miss Bertie
left her second row seat and headed for the ladies’ room.
Without fail. You could set your Mickey Mouse watch by it. And
always she would return to walk the full length of the center
aisle with either a three foot strand of bathroom tissue stuck
to her heel or the back of her dress stuffed into the top of
her cotton stocking. Either way, it sent us diving under the
pews in paroxysms of stifled laughter. We loved Miss
Bertie.
Then there was Uncle Emery, an elderly man with an Ed Wynne
appearance, who got blessed at least once during the revivals
and let forth in holy laughter. I mean he’d get just tickled
to death over something the speaker said and let ‘er rip in
sustained giggling. We teenagers in the back row approved of
his blessing and we in turn blessed each other, roaring with
delight, punching each other, bending double and loving this
five minute departure from the boring sermon. I don’t remember
the visiting speaker being amused.
But one night things came to a screeching halt for me in
the back row. My dad had been after me for months to make a
commitment to Christ. In my early-teen reasoning I was sure it
meant I’d have to give up the back row, sit down in front with
Mother and Daddy at every service, pray long prayers with
“thee” and “thou” and paste a scripture verse on my forehead
in bold block letters. So I told Daddy I’d make this
commitment whenever my sister, Norma, did.
I knew this would permit me to enjoy my wild and sinful
lifestyle for many more years because Norma was the least
likely person to ever make this kind of decision. So at the
close of one revival service, I was knocked senseless when I
saw my sister make her way to the front of the church. All my
friends in the back row turned to me in wide-eyed unbelief;
they knew my predicament. They knew my dad would come after
me. They viewed this as the most exciting thing ever to happen
in our church. They were beside themselves in
anticipation.
So I did what I always do in cases like this; I ran. Down
to the basement, into the ladies’ bathroom, crouched in the
back of the stall where my dad couldn’t possibly find me.
But my friends in the back row proved just how fickle
teenagers can be. They gave my mother very explicit directions
where to find me in the basement.
Do you lose spiritual points if you are taken kicking and
screaming to the front of the church by your mama? I need to
know.
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RIDDLED WITH RIDDLES
To paraphrase I Corinthians 13, “When I was a child, I
thought like a child, I spoke like a child and behaved like a
child and now that I’m a woman, I’m still doing childish
things”. It’s people like me that gave St. Paul the Apostle a
real fit. But I can’t help it. I love to laugh and I’ve never
grown up. And it’s too late to change now.
One of my childish habits is that I love riddles and
questions that turn your brain inside out trying to solve
them. Riddles must be important because Shakespeare mentions
them twelve times. I know because I read through The Complete
Works of Shakespeare just this very morning and counted them.
(I didn’t really; I just wanted to see if anyone was paying
attention.)
Former Labor leader James R. Hoffa’s middle name is Riddle
which must mean something; I’m just not sure what. If we could
solve that riddle, maybe we’d know under which cement slab
he’s buried.
We once had a van full of unruly teenagers returning from a
skiing trip at Sugar Mountain in western North Carolina. Given
the assignment to quiet them down, I told the group, “OK,
listen up. I’ll give this $50 bill to the first person who can
tell me the only word in the English language which contains
three consecutive sets of double letters.” Immediately the
kids stopped talking and yelling, brows began to wrinkle,
thinking caps pulled way down over their ears. The van was
quiet as a tomb for the next hundred miles. The answer, of
course, is “bookkeeper” (and its derivatives) but I didn’t
tell them ‘til after we arrived home. And, of course, I didn’t
have to shell out $50.
My father was the best at this game. He was studying his
Sunday School lesson in preparation for teaching when he asked
me, “Do you believe God can do anything?”
“Sure, Daddy,” I replied, sitting my skinny little
ten-year-old self down beside him. “I believe God can do
anything.”
“Do you believe God can make a rock so heavy He can’t lift
it?” Daddy asked, smiling.
I must have spent two weeks drawing pictures of God and
rocks. I still don’t know the answer.
I once asked my little brother which word in the English
language is most frequently spelled wrong. He said he didn’t
know and didn’t really care and to leave him alone. If anyone
cares, it’s the word, “wrong.”
One night I was bored so I looked around for something to
amuse me. I decided to pester my patient husband. “John,” I
said, “if we were to stand all the people in the world
together shoulder to shoulder in one spot, would that spot
need to be as large as the entire United States?”
John looked at me incredulously. “Are you kidding? They
could all fit into eastern North Carolina.
“Oh sure,” I replied.
With that, John picked up his trusty calculator and,
allowing one square yard per person for six billion people, he
proved that the entire population of the world could fit into
New Hanover and three surrounding counties.
John’s pretty smart. I used to think the corpus collosum of
women’s brains were larger than men’s, but now I’m not so
sure. Maybe I should find out what corpus collosums are before
making that judgment.
In the meantime, should I ask John what the first telephone
number in the Bible is?
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RIDICULOUS RECYCLING
I missed the boat when I didn’t invest in the hula hoop.
I’ve always regretted that I didn’t buy stock in Pet Rocks.
But I missed a golden opportunity when I didn’t invest in
pantyhose stock in 1959 when Glen Raven Mills of North
Carolina introduced the underpants and stockings all in one
garment. Arguably, pantyhose proved to be the single most
important stock item for women in the twentieth century. At
the very least, it was right up there with industrial strength
mascara.
Someone could make millions doing a video of women putting
on panty hose. There is simply no lady-like way to do it.
Every woman turns into a contortionist/gymnast/ballet dancer/
weight lifter when squirming to pull them up. Probably no
other exercise so provokes women into thoughts of murdering
the man who invented them and murdering her husband who is
bent double laughing at the bizarre sight of his wife
performing this necessary daily routine.
Women toss out panty hose regularly after one or two
wearings. But every day husbands are found digging through the
trash to retrieve them for recycling. A few husbands even
purchase new ones for use around the garage or garden.
Lewis Huffer of Carolina Beach purchases new panty hose to
store his Vidalia onions, carefully hanging them where they
get fresh, circulating air. He refuses to use worn out panty
hose as a matter of principle. Hey, the guy gets my vote.
I was watching a small fishing boat being launched at the
ramp on the south end of the island when I did a double-take.
There, suspended in the cool water and attached to the side of
the boat by a rope, was a pair of panty hose with about eight
cans of beer stuffed into each leg, forming two stiff, slender
columns. I must have registered my surprise and amusement
because the young fisherman grinned broadly and said, “I
didn’t have room for a cooler. Pretty good idea, huh?”
Some men use old panty hose to tie up tomato plants,
because the hose are easy on the branches and don't cut into
the stems. And if men have no time to shampoo, they can wrap
an old, clean pair of panty hose over their hairbrush, lightly
spray the brush with cologne, and brush through their hair.
The panty hose will absorb oil, and the cologne will break
down the oil and give the hair a nice clean scent. Don’t
bother asking my husband, John, if he’s tried this. He’d
rather die first.
Fishermen in the Cape Fear River use panty hose to stuff
their fresh chicken liver bait in, since the chicken liver
isn’t solid enough to put a hook through. And one ingenious
fishermen posted these instructions in a bait shop: “When
fishing for blues, don’t use a hook. Using your wife’s old
panty hose, insert some highly reflective silver, gold or
multi-color tape in the legs and bundle up the waist. Insert a
heavy duty snap swivel in the waist of the panty hose and cast
it into the water. The blues will hit the panty hose because
they think it’s an eel and will get their teeth tangled in the
nylon. This tip will save you tons of money in lures.”
I ran that suggestion by several fishermen on the pier and
the guffaws could be heard all the way to Southport.
But the recycling story I like best involves two men who
set out to rob a southern bank, using panty hose as disguises.
The first fellow pulled the stockings down so far that his
face was way into the leg of the pantyhose. One leg was
hanging down on his shoulder, and the other leg was hanging
over his head like a floppy rabbit ear. And because he had his
face into the leg of the stocking, it did not disguise him at
all and he was easily identified by the video camera. Had a
gun not been pointed at her, the bank teller might have died
laughing.
The second robber had cut both legs off his pair of
pantyhose, tied knots in them and pulled the pantyhose over
his face. The knots stood up like a pair of stiff dog ears.
The thick panel from the front of the pantyhose covered his
face and he couldn’t see, so he pulled up his pantyhose mask
to scream at the teller “Fill this bag.” The security camera
snapped his picture before he pulled the pantyhose back down
over this face. It was something straight out of Keystone
Kops.
What a hilarious visual. Right up there with Martha
Stewart’s TV segment, “How to Tow A Car Using Panty Hose and
Duct Tape.”
We’re all nuts.
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RIDING HERD AT THE GROCERY STORE
by Mariane Holbrook
What's with this "Self Check-Out"
thingy at the supermarket, anyway?
It's an issue with me because I have a bad knee.
Well, ok, so I really have a bad leg. OK, OK, don't
push your envelope too far on this but I've got an
entire bad body! Whaddya expect from someone older
than dirt who got her driver's license behind the
wheel of a Studebaker?
Anyway, the other night I drag my Methuselah self
into the grocery store
to do my weekly shopping. I prefer shopping at 2
a.m. simply because
there are less victims around when I drive that
motorized vehicle like a maniac down aisle 6 and run
straight through an 8 foot tall pyramid of Velveeta
cheese. Is that my fault? Sheesh. Talk about poor
product display! Besides that, those motorized cars
only have two speeds: slow and ram.
So I hurry past the debris of cheese boxes,
pasting an innocent look on my face, and tool over
to aisle 9 where I notice, (oh, lovely!) the
Kikkoman soy sauce on the very top shelf, far beyond
the reach of my sitting-down-self.
So I slowly stand up, being careful not to let out
my well-practiced, pain-filled scream which
regularly empties the graves at Fort Fisher. I take
two small steps and reach for the Kikkoman, placing
it and myself carefully back in the motorized
vehicle.
Two aisles later a woman with a black Gestapo
patch on her sleeve approaches me, plants her feet
widely apart, hands on her hips in a threatening
manner and hisses, "Didn't I see you walking over
there on aisle 9? How can you in good conscience
ride that thing when so many others in here who are
REALLY, TRULY disabled could use it? Hmm? Hmm? Hmm?"
I look around and see only one other person in
the entire store: a teenage boy with zits loading up
on Little Debbie cakes.
I stare at her and think of several brilliant
answers: "Lady, go drown yourself in the pickle
crock!" Or "Which part of your face shall I leave
intact after I get through pummeling you through the
floor tiles?"
But stupid me sits there with a DUH look on my
face, never saying a word as she stalks down the
aisle, mumbling to herself. Then I really, really
get scared. What if she finds out it was ME who
tunneled through the cheese display with wild
abandon?
So I hurry to the front to pay for my groceries
to get outta Dodge. But there are no cashiers in
sight. NOT EVEN ONE! Instead, there's a sign telling
us to check out our own groceries, and leave a check
(if we wanted to) at the front desk. It's the latest
electric eye thingy that management trusts to cut
down on shop-lifters. Oh, yeah.
So now I have to STAND UP and take a few steps
and put all these groceries on the counter and
through that electric eye thingy which reads the bar
codes.
And guess who's standing right behind me in line
making her "harrumph, harrumph" sounds?
I shoulda run over her while I had the chance.
(Just kidding, Lord.)
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ROAD KILL
Road kill upsets me. It doesn’t matter if it’s a raccoon, a
possum, a dog or cat or whatever. And I’m depressed for hours
if I see a deer lying motionless and stiff by the side of the
road. No animal deserves to be hit by a vehicle. Except one: a
snake. Every time I see a dead snake on the highway I cheer
and yell and beep the horn and turn around and run over it
again just to make sure it’s dead.
Maybe snakes aren’t given a fair shake. Maybe if Adam and
Eve had yearned for banana pudding instead of apple pie, we’d
be looking at snakes through a more compassionate lens; I’m
not sure.
I admit to being a certified, card carrying, flag waving
ophidiphobic. I am scared to death of snakes. So you can
imagine my unparalleled horror when the father of one of my
first grade students brought his six-foot pet boa constrictor
to “Show and Tell” one morning. When he draped it around my
shaking shoulders and asked me to hold it, I concentrated
mightily on trying not to faint dead away in front of 32
wide-eyed students who cheered me on.
Little girls, almost without exception, are terrified of
snakes, but little boys adore them. One school day, my friend
Billie Jo’s little grandson found a small harmless garter
snake on the school playground. Wanting desperately to keep
it, Andrew hid the snake in his sock where it wiggled all
afternoon trying to escape into the classroom. He managed to
keep it from the teacher’s sight and transported it secretly
and successfully home where he enjoyed it for several days
before it met its demise.
When our cousin bought a grand old house near Harker’s
Island, he quickly discovered copperheads in bushes and
undergrowth all around the property. Leslie killed a bucketful
of copperheads one morning and carried them to the road where
he lined them up in perfect symmetry in the middle of the
highway. Then he sat on his porch to watch in bemused silence
as car after car careened down the highway, brakes screeching
to a sudden halt, as drivers craned their necks to stare
open-mouthed at the astonishing sight before them. It was a
gothic sight straight out of a Stephen King novel.
While living in West Africa, my sister, Norma and her
family were hit by spitting cobras, fought off boa
constrictors and tangled with pythons. Other very deadly and
poisonous snakes were either stepped on or narrowly missed
when my sister and her family walked around the mission
compound.
One day they discovered that a python had been raiding the
chicken coup and eating the eggs.. Eggs are not plentiful in
Africa and each one is therefore precious. In an effort to
outsmart the python, Norma placed a hard-boiled egg in the
nest with the fresh eggs. The python, unable to digest or
regurgitate the hard-boiled egg, crawled into the underbrush
and died.
But you can overdo it. When my friend, Sandy, discovered a
snake in her yard, she didn’t bother with hard-boiled eggs.
Having two small daughters and a snake in the same yard was
more than just a little frightening for Sandy. First, she
paralyzed the snake with a garden hoe, then ran for her .22
rifle and shot the snake seventeen times until it resembled a
four-foot rope of raw hamburger. Sandy was one angry little
mama.
Near Laurinburg one night, some college kids decided to
have fun by cramming three long black snakes inside a
suitcase. They shook the suitcase vigorously to agitate the
snakes before placing the suitcase beside the country road.
The young men then hid in the bushes nearby to watch and wait.
As expected, a car sped by, stopped, then backed to grab the
suitcase. The young men in the bushes held their collective
breaths as the car took off down the road, then screeched to a
sudden halt. All four car doors flew open simultaneously as
four men jettisoned out like NASA rockets, leaving the opened
suitcase and the slithering, angry snakes crawling around
inside the abandoned car.
Billy Graham once said that God would provide whatever it
takes to make us happy in heaven. Conversely, I suppose that
means God would keep out of heaven anything that scares us
senseless.
I’ll buy that.
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RUB A DUB DUB
Every time I hear someone hearken back to the "good ole
days" I think, "Hmmm, they can't possibly be thinkin' of the
old wringer washer days."
Admittedly, this dates me back to Older Than Dirt B.C., but
I remember that sturdy, noisy, necessary contraption like it
was yesterday.
Mother kept ours in the cellar (Southerners call them
"basements;" Yankees call them "cellars.") It was rigged up in
the middle of the floor with a round gray and white rope rug
beneath to catch all the soapsuds that regularly poured like
Niagara over its sides and piled up like snow banks on the
Yukon. (I'm sure the suggested use of "a cup of soap powder"
didn't mean "use half a box" but I could be wrong.)
The agitator made its loud "ka-thump, ka-thump, ka-thump"
noise that shook the entire house but was Beethoven's 6th
symphony to Mother's ears. With seven children and the
enormous wash load, it's a wonder the thing lasted a week.
The fact is, the wringer on that old washer scared me half
to death. I had nightmares about it. I'd dream I was
Cinderella with my golden locks being pulled through the
wringer, leaving my screaming self not only hairless but
scalpless. I feared my kitty going through those menacing
rollers and coming out flat as a bookend. And when my little
brother got on my very last nerve, I envisioned forcing the
little monster through the rollers and making a colorful flat
kite outta him.
One day my worst fears about the wringers were realized.
While visiting my brother and sister-in-law in another
city, I decided to make my nine-year-old-skinny-self useful;
I'd help with the washing. I'd never done it before but, hey,
how hard could it be? Besides, I needed to make some points
with my older brother who told me every hour on the hour what
a pain in the neck and blight on civilization I was.
Reaching into the soapy water, I pulled out the largest
pieces first and fed them through the wringer with ease. What
a breeze. I watched with satisfaction as they landed in the
clear rinse water tub with no discernible buttons missing, a
tribute to my impressive, new-found skills.
Then I began loading the smaller items, spreading a wash
cloth out before entering it into the rollers.
BIG MISTAKE. In went my fingers, my hand, my ARM. I was
being sucked mercilessly into the black abyss I had long
feared. My high-pitched screams brought my sister-in-law just
in time to pull me from this live Medusa Monster, this
Fomorian Fiend, this Barjuchne Behemoth.
Immediately before my head and torso were drawn through the
wringers, my sister-in-law, Elaine, unplugged the washer and
slowly withdrew my arm. I could say I collapsed in a quiet,
limp heap on the wet floor but I was in such wild hysteria
that she had to scrape my writhing body from the ceiling with
a plastic spatula.
Rushing me in her car to the doctor, he ceremoniously
inspected my bruised, battered pathetically thin, little flat
arm and pronounced me "unhurt." Was he crazy? I was sure every
single bone in my arm was crushed into grits, held together
only by small fragments of spared skin.
But he remained adamant, ignoring my desperate pleas to
amputate my arm and give me a new one on the spot.
Elaine, embarrassed by my blatant pleas for sympathy,
suddenly realized she'd forgotten her purse in our mad race
against death to the doctor's office.
She made a bargain with the doctor who didn't know either
of us from Adam (or Eve or Seth or whoever). She was willing
to leave me in his office as ransom until she returned with
the $15 payment for his services.
I let out a yell that emptied the graves at Endwell
Cemetery.
"WHAAAT? I know you. You'll never return and I'll be
orphaned in a strange doctor's office that reeks of
formaldehyde from old skulls in a jar. Besides, I'm worth more
than $15."
She returned (not particularly in record time, either) and
upon payment of $15, I was released from Dr. Williard Weird's
care.
Years went by and I never thought much about washers until
yesterday when John's best pen was missing. Finally I called
out to him:
"The good news is I found your pen.
The bad news is that all your white shirts in the washer
are covered with ink."
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RUTH AND NAOMI
From the start, my mother-in-law and I had a Ruth and Naomi
relationship. Her people would be my people and her God, my
God.
I liked her the first time I saw her. John and I were
developing a relationship in college and she embarked on a
long train ride from North Carolina to New York City to meet
me. She appeared youthful and, indeed, she was. There was a
classiness about her that intrigued me. The way she wore a
scarf, a sweater tossed casually across her slim shoulders,
her coordinates carefully selected; all these things suggested
an innate feel for what was appealing.
Mother Holbrook had not had an easy life. Her father
abandoned the family when she was young and her strong, devout
mother raised her and her two brothers. Mother Holbrook
married a quiet, kind man from the mountains of North Carolina
and while they remained deeply committed to each other for
nearly sixty five years, they were never blessed with an
abundance of material things.
She can’t be described with just one adjective. She was
witty and clever. She was compassionate. Her middle name could
have been “thoughtful.” She gave new depth and definition to
the words “caring and loving.” She never thought of herself as
being deeply spiritual, but indeed was. She was humble,
forgiving, and self-effacing. She was every inch a lady. She
was one of the most godly women I ever knew.
We had such deep respect for each other that we never
invaded each other’s privacy. She never took sides in any
disagreement John and I had, but quietly excused herself from
the conversation. She didn’t offer unsolicited advice or give
unwelcomed criticism. If anything, she was too good and more
unselfish than she should have been or needed to be.
My husband made sure in their later years that his parents
were well provided for. He arranged for them to spend the last
twenty years of their lives in the beloved North Carolina
mountain community where his father had been born many years
ago. They lived simply, they were content, they felt secure
and loved. And they were.
Mother Holbrook loved humor and laughed easily and often.
Looking at the x-rays of her broken arm, the surgeon asked
seventy-year-old Mother Holbrook how it happened.
“Oh, I was just playing football,” she laughed, then
explained that while babysitting with a neighbor’s child, she
fell while playing football with him on the front lawn.
Our son, Johnny, began calling her “Mamoo” when he was a
toddler. The name stuck and Johnny and Tim fondly called her
by that name as long as she lived.
Her love for her husband, John A., was legendary. She
wanted nothing more than to make him happy, make him feel
loved, make him feel cared for. She asked nothing in return
but his warm smile and his hand holding hers.
When her beloved John A. passed away, her spirit died. She
became only a shell of her former self. For several months she
valiantly tried to hold on but the loneliness was too great,
the loss too keen, the sacrifice too much.
She wasted away and finally her heavenly father sent a
favorite angel to escort her into heaven to be with her loving
husband.
I still miss her.
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SATURDAY WITH MY DAD
Daddy placed his straw hat on his shiny bald head and
picked up his dog-eared Bible. I groaned. He asked me to tag
along while he visited the sick and afflicted at the local
hospital. On my list of THINGS I WANT TO DO, “Hospital
Visitation” was at the very bottom, right under “Cleaning and
Shoveling Out My Younger Brother’s Bedroom.” I always blanched
at the thought of entering a hospital; weren’t there sick
people in there?
I was a typical know-it-all teenager; I’m surprised my
family didn’t shoot me. But I felt sorry for Daddy so I set my
book aside and sauntered out the door with him. He was
underwhelmed by my enthusiasm.
The bad thing about these visits was their sheer length;
they took up half a Saturday afternoon, a time reserved by New
York State Law #69403 for teenagers to hang out at the Sugar
Bowl Restaurant and squander their entire allowance on Milk
Duds and milk shakes.
The first patient we visited at the hospital was a friend
of Daddy’s named Stubby Knecht. I adored his name. The name
begged to be spoken aloud: Stub-by Ka-necked. The men regaled
each other with stories about the Lehigh Valley Railroad where
they were employed, ignoring me as I sat in a metal chair
repeating Stubby’s name to myself. I made a mental note to ask
Mother why I was given a name as mundane and meaningless as
mine when this man had a name grown men would kill for.
Starting down the hall to visit another friend, we heard
familiar and unfamiliar voices calling Daddy’s name from rooms
up and down the hall. “Bub,” they called, one after another,
using Daddy’s nickname, “stop in for a minute.” He read a few
verses of Scripture to each one, prayed, then continued on to
the next room. Everyone, it seemed, knew my dad. He was easily
one of the most loved and respected men in our village.
When we finally returned home, I settled down to watch a
movie on television. It was a love story, and at age fifteen,
I was an expert on love stories. I had devoured every Grace
Livingston Hill romance novel in our local library. (Earlier
that summer I had approached my neighbor who was engaged to a
soldier stationed in another part of the country. “Gladys,” I
asked, “do you long passionately for David every single moment
of every single day?” “No, I can’t say that I do,” replied
Gladys, puzzled. “Well, then, you’re not in love,” I
pronounced with teenage authority and marched back home.)
I became more engrossed in the love story on television
that Saturday afternoon. Stretched out on the green sofa, I
watched the drama unfold and sat upright to watch its dramatic
conclusion.
Suddenly, Daddy walked through the room, switched the
television dial over to a thrilling baseball game and settled
in his easy chair.
“No, please turn it back; it’s almost over. I have to see
the ending of that movie. I just have to,” I cried out over
the cheering of thousands of fans in the stadium now filling
our television screen.
Daddy didn’t hear me. He was so engrossed in the play that
he heard nothing above the roar of the crowds. He was cheering
with them, pounding one fist into another in approval.
“Daddy,” I cried above the noise, “How could you do that?
You made me miss the best part of a movie I’ve been watching
for almost two hours. I ran from the room, sprinted
upstairs and flung myself onto my bed, frustration spilling
from every pore. I didn’t leave my room the rest of the
day.
I didn’t see him when he left very early Sunday morning to
preach for another pastor. I didn’t hear his sermon. But I did
hear him return home late in the day.
Sitting down beside me in our living room, he put his arm
around me. “This morning I started to preach but I
couldn’t,” he choked, “ I closed my Bible and began weeping at
the pulpit. I told the congregation I had to ask God to
forgive me before I could begin my sermon. I told them I had
deeply disappointed my young daughter, that I wanted to watch
a baseball game more than anything else and I hurt you
terribly. I prayed for God to forgive me there in the pulpit
in front of the congregation and now I ask you to forgive
me.”
I threw my arms around Daddy, buried my face in his neck
and cried with shame. I couldn’t speak. I knew that Daddy
watched the ball game on Saturdays. It was his favorite
pastime. He knew every score of every player of every game
that was ever played, it seemed.
My father worked all week in the blazing sun at the Lehigh
Valley Railroad station. This menial job was far beneath him.
His brilliant mind should have been utilized as a scholar,
writer or teacher, but with seven children to feed and clothe,
he worked at this sweat shop for over forty years. Watching
baseball on television was his only outlet, his only
relaxation. I knew I would never forgive myself for this
misunderstanding. And I haven’t.
Many years later when my father lay in a sterile hospital
room dying of multiple myeloma, a form of cancer that ravaged
his body, he whispered to Mother through parched lips, “I hope
I haven’t let Marian down too much.”
My loving father has been gone for over 30 years. I have
never gotten over his death.
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SIGNS OF OUR TIMES
I love signs. Especially hand-lettered ones. I enjoy
sitting in my car in grocery store parking lots, looking for
misspellings on hand-lettered signs in the store windows. I
have counted as many as eight misspellings on just one sign.
Most of the time they are innocuous; occasionally, the
misspellings are hilarious, as in “Hambugger: $1.29 pr
pond.”
Some of my all-time favorites were seen in various
locations around the county a few years ago. Boiled peanuts
were in season and were being sold from backs of pick-up
trucks in parking lots everywhere. I like boiled peanuts, but
it was the signs that made me smile: “Bald peanuts for sale”.
“Boled peanuts 4 Sale.” “Bolied peanuts sold here”. “Bollied
peanuts”. “Bold peanuts”. Boyel peanuts”. “Boiyeled peanuts”.
And my favorite: ”Boilloied peanuts right here”.
One morning we drove past a large, hand-lettered sign stuck
firmly and resolutely in the front lawn of a house beside a
country church. In large, bold uneven letters, the sign read:
“NO TRESPASSING! ALL RELIGIOUS PERVERTS WILL BE SHOT”. (Hmmm.
I hope that homeowner was quickly removed the church weekly
visitation schedule.)
Church signs have always held a fascination for me. Have
you noticed the smaller the church, the longer its name?
Conversely, large churches usually have single names: Baptist,
Catholic, Presbyterian, Methodist, Lutheran. But it gets
interesting when you see small store-front churches with names
like “Cornerstone Church Of The Apostles, Saints And Believers
Of The Trinity Of The Father, Son and Holy Ghost,” or “First
Community Church of Bread On The Waters Bible Fellowship For
All Nations Under God ” (Now THAT is a church I could get
involved in.)
A minister with an irreverent, but mischievous sense of
humor posted this sign in front of his church: “WHERE WILL YOU
SPEND ETERNITY? SMOKING OR NON-SMOKING?”
A road sign in front of a convenience store not far from me
advertises: “COFFEE AND WORMS”. (Is this an environmentalist’s
version of coffee and donuts? Or is it warning about the
after-effects of their store brand of coffee?)
On our church bulletin board years ago, a ninety-year-old
lady had posted this sign, written in her shaky handwriting:
“You are invited to my birthday party this Saturday at 2 pm.
No refreshments. Just presents.”
A road sign not far from my childhood home advertised
“SHAW’S LUNCH”. Directly beneath it hung another sign:
“PREPARE TO MEET THY GOD.” (Unrelated? We declined to find
out. Some other time, maybe.)
But the sign that still brings me joy was written many
years ago by one of my first grade students who had an
especially difficult time learning to read. In childish block
letters and taped to my desk, the small sign read “FOR TECHR.”
Beside it lay the commercial Christmas card she had selected
for me, solely because of its pretty picture: “Merry Christmas
To Our Loved One in the Service.”
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SOUTHERN FRIED MARTHA STEWART
I love Martha Stewart. I think we should clone her and give
a copy to every single family in America. Then we could all
learn to cook crostini, risotto, rabe, biscotti, arborio or
carnaroli. (Right after we find out what on earth they are.)
I subscribed to Martha’s “Living” magazine so I could
become a domestic goddess and own imported, hand-carved salad
bowls from the Isle of Crete. My four empty margarine cartons
have served as my matching dishes long enough.
While I’m anxious to try her Negamaki Whatever, I’m
reluctant to give up Southern cooking completely. As a
transplanted Yankee, I’ve embraced the South wholeheartedly
and even learned that fat back is one of our four basic food
groups, right up there with butter beans, turnip greens and
grits.
When I moved to the South as a newly-wed, my first faux pas
at my in-laws’ table was to liberally salt the slab of country
ham on my breakfast plate. I was puzzled by the
uncomprehending stares around me and gamely devoured the ham,
sending my blood pressure into the far reaches of the upper
stratosphere. Then I nonchalantly poured milk and sugar on my
grits, thinking it was cream of wheat.
At lunch, my mother-in-law asked if I preferred lettuce on
my liver pudding sandwich. I blanched. Liver pudding? I tried
to visualize chocolate pudding between two slices of white
bread with lettuce. I chose sans lettuce.
Since those early days, I’ve learned a lot about Southern
cuisine:
I’ve learned that you don’t walk into a restaurant and
order “two eggs and a grit.”
I’ve learned that red-eye gravy is not made from dead red
snapper fish eyes.
I’ve learned that you don’t eat pinto beans before going to
church.
And I’ve learned that ordering a hot dog “all the way” is
not a phrase that would make your mama fall over dead.
Every New Year’s Day, my father-in-law woke at dawn to
prepare hog’s jowl, black-eyed peas, collard greens, white
sweet potatoes, steamed apples and cornbread for a noon feast.
This is a soul-food meal steeped in tradition. And the good
luck it always brings explains why our family, like every
other Southern family, is inordinately rich, unbelievably
wise, and stunningly healthy. Or should be.
So my dilemma now is how to square my new appreciation of
Martha Stewart’s Baba Ghanoush using tahini, with Martha
White’s Baked Chitlin Cornbread using baking soda. At first
glance, it seems to be a no-win situation.
For example, what can we substitute for Martha Stewart’s
Sauteed Freshly Picked Fiddlehead Ferns? And would they go
well with cheese grits or country ham grits or both?
(Incidentally, hominy grits are made from field corn soaked in
lye water for a couple of days. I knew you’d wanna know.)
Could we omit the Pasilla in the Pico De Gallo in Martha’s
recipe and use bologna fold-overs instead?
And I’m not really sure if Martha’s Masa Harina should be
served with chicken gizzards or with calves brains and eggs or
what.
On second thought, maybe I should concentrate on Martha
Stewart’s home decorating and purchase her Yves Delorme Eau a
la bouche damask tablecloth for $400. It might go better with
my matching Cool Whip salad bowls.
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STOP, THIEF !
You’ve never really known major trauma until someone steals
your purse with your under-eye concealer in it.
My friend Dee was exasperated recently when robbers
overlooked her mother’s television, her stereo, elegant attire
from Lord and Taylor, and heirloom jewelry, to steal, of all
things, Dee’s make-up kit. The world is in free-fall, no
question about it.
My run-in with thieves happened at a grocery store on a
Friday night when I should have been home baking dill bread or
something.
John was casually pushing an empty cart around (all men do
this while their wives are piling their own carts high with
cartons of Pepsi and giant size Tide detergent and huffing and
puffing down each aisle). Finally I finished shopping and met
John near the check-out counter.
“Oh my heavens,” I gasped. “Someone has stolen my purse. I
have $450 cash in it as well as my checkbook and credit
cards.” (This wasn’t the time to mention under-eye
concealer.)
John had been through this with me before when I left my
purse containing $400 at a fast food restaurant somewhere in
Maryland. But we won’t go there.
He instructed me to check our car to make sure it hadn’t
been left there while he went for the manager.
Hurrying back inside I sobbed, “Oh no! They’ve stolen our
car, too.” John looked through the store window and pointed
to our car. “Don’t be silly. It’s two lanes over.” (Men don’t
give OR take directions well.)
I called to the manager to lock the doors and begin
strip-searching every single customer.
“Lady, this is Friday night, our busiest night,” he sighed.
“I can’t do that for only $450.” (Now why didn’t I tell him I
really had $45,000 cash and some under-eye concealer in my
purse? Good grief.) I gave him a dirty look which interpreted
meant, “You can be replaced, Sonny.”
John and the manager began checking every aisle to see if
I’d left my purse somewhere (“Try looking on top of all those
precariously perched Kikkoman Soy Sauce bottles,” I wanted to
yell. But I didn’t.)
Meanwhile, I stationed myself at the front of the store,
giving the evil eye to every customer, wondering aloud if my
purse was causing the suspicious bulge under one lady’s coat,
but decided it was a case of too many Hostess Twinkies. I
wanted to ask another woman if I could peek in her shopping
bag but she intimidated me with her Sumai wrestler’s build and
her sparse pony-tail held in place with a rubber band.
John returned to the front of the store with the manager
and shook his head. It was no use; my purse was gone.
Immediately, a quiet, refined lady approached the manager
and said, “Someone must have taken my cart by mistake. I had a
head of lettuce and some peppers in mine, and when I turned to
place some apples in my cart, this purse was in there.”
She handed my purse to the manager while he removed her
lettuce and peppers from my cart. I poked my head out from
where I was hiding behind John, thanked her and apologized to
the manager.
I checked immediately to see if my under-eye concealer was
still in my purse. From the look on John’s face, I prayed it
would cover black eyes exceedingly well.
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STRIP-SEARCHING AN ANGEL
If my niece, Debbie, had picked up her classic Daily Light
devotions one recent morning, she would have read the
comforting words, “He knows the way I take. O Lord, You have
searched me and known me.”
But Debbie wasn’t searched by the Lord that day. Instead,
she was strip-searched at an airport. And at the order of an
airport security guard with a thick accent and an eye for
theatrics.
Debbie is not alone. Seventy-five year old Representative
John Dingell of Michigan was stripped to his underwear last
week at Reagan National Airport in Washington even though he
explained he was wearing a knee brace and had surgically
implanted pins in his ankles.
Debbie is in her mid-forties, a former missionary in the
Philippines, a trim, blonde, blue-eyed woman with an open
heart and a smile that would light up Nebraska. Why she was
picked out of a long line of airline passengers to be
strip-searched is beyond reason. It bordered on insanity and
finally spilled over into the ridiculous.
One of her saving graces is that Debbie sees humor in
everything. Or nearly everything. I love her like my own kid.
I like to think we both frolicked in the same humor gene pool.
(My nephew, Mark, was patted down recently by two young,
comely security guards before gaining entrance to a New
England Patriot’s game but he grinned broadly at the girls and
said, “Hey, I enjoyed that. Can I go through the line
again?”)
Debbie was stricken with polio as a child only a short time
before the polio vaccine was discovered. Bad timing for her,
but she’s the ultimate trooper. Completely devoid of
self-pity, she tackles life head on, holds graduate degrees,
and works in a management position where she is admired for
her skill in dealing with people.
Debbie wears a leg brace, compliments of her bout with
polio. It’s cumbersome and bulky and often painful, but she
manages it with dignity and wears long pants to keep it
covered and to provide added warmth for her leg.
It was the leg brace which sent the security guard into
orbit at the airport even though the scanner defined it and
Debbie lifted her pant leg slightly to reveal the brace.
Unmoved and darkly suspicious, the security guard crisply
and loudly ordered two female employees to escort Debbie to
the public restroom where she was to completely disrobe,
ostensibly to be searched for Samurai swords, meat cleavers,
chain saws or whatever else she could hide on her thin frame.
On Debbie’s mental list of “Things I Still Want To Do In This
Life,” disrobing in a public bathroom in front of curious
onlookers was hardly at the top of her list. She refused to
go, declaring this was outrageous and discriminatory. The
female employees agreed with her and refused to take part in
the strip-search.
Lines of other passengers watched this exchange with
fascination, and airport personnel stopped their normal
business to stare. It was surreal. Debbie had never received a
parking ticket, let alone being stopped, strip-searched and
mentally accused of being a terrorist at an airport.
She laughed to herself. She couldn’t even use a potato
peeler with facility. How could she wield a machete? And what
instrument of destruction did they think she was hiding under
these size 8 slacks, anyway? What was so menacing about her
Anglo-Saxon looks? She was too “white bread” for her own
good.
Debbie was finally advised that unless she obeyed orders,
she would be denied access to the plane. She had visions of
the airport suddenly closing and hundreds of passengers
inconvenienced by her refusal. What if her picture were spread
on the front pages of area newspapers and on CNN news?
Finally, she agreed to the strip-search if it could be done
in a private room. The security guard magnanimously provided a
large broom closet.
No linoleum cutters were found hidden in her leg brace. No
paring knives were taped to her torso. No scissors were stuck
in her stockings.
What they found instead was Debbie’s dignity still intact,
something she’s worn as a lifelong badge of honor. Immediately
after the search, she dressed, squared her shoulders and
walked past the overbearing security guard toward the plane
without so much as a glance in his direction.
That’s my niece! See why I love her?
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THE LITTLE SAILOR
My dad was a sailor in the Mediterranean during World War I
and single-handedly brought the war to a close with his
bravery and battle skills. Or so I told all my childhood
friends when I wrapped Daddy’s well-worn Navy shirt around my
skinny shoulders, pulled his white sailor cap down over my
curls and sashayed around the neighborhood.
Daddy was a handsome, blond, curly-haired sailor whose
picture on the deck of that navy troop ship should have been
on every recruiting poster in America. He told me often of
standing along the rail of that ship in the moonlight and
desperately missing his fiancé, my mother, who waited back
home for his safe return.
I have an idea, though, that Daddy had sailor’s blood
coursing through his veins from the time he was a toddler for
this reason: he gave depth and definition to the well-worn
phrase, “swears like a sailor.”
Where Daddy picked up his colorful language baffled
everyone, given his Christian upbringing. In adulthood, he
turned out to be a saint, became a seasoned Bible teacher and
served as a lay preacher. To me he was the most godly man I
ever knew.
But his saintliness didn’t prevent his sharing his early
childhood experiences with his own children, who doubled over
with laughter and delight every time he recounted them.
He was given the nickname “Bub” by his sister who couldn’t
pronounce “brother. The name stuck.
Bub’s mother was a well-known Bible teacher, who taught in
the small neighborhood church as well as in her own living
room. One summer afternoon in the year 1903 she gave
seven-year-old Bub strict instructions to remain upstairs in
his bedroom during a prayer meeting she was conducting for
friends in her living room.
As the prayers were being offered by the large group
kneeling in the living room, they were interrupted by a
rooster whose legs Bub had tied together with a rope and who
Bub was dangling from his upstairs window, swinging the
screeching animal back and forth in front of the open living
room window below. His mother charged up the stairs, retrieved
the enraged bird from Bub’s grasp and locked Bub in his room
for the duration of the prayer meeting.
That summer, Bub’s grandfather died after a long illness.
Since he was well-known in the community, the funeral
procession was long. At the cemetery, the pastor gave the
usual farewells, prayed before the large crowd gathered around
the grave site, and whispered a quiet amen.
Since Bub’s grandfather was a Civil War veteran, full
military honors were afforded and a gun salute began.
As the guns were sending out their volleys of thunder,
Bub’s grandmother fainted, both from exhaustion and the
blistering summer heat.
“Oh no,” screamed little Bub to the large crowd, “The
blankety blanks just shot grandma!”
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NOAH'S ARIZONA FLOOD
My friend, Dee, was facing a flood of Biblical proportions.
Enough to make her wish that Noah, the ageless Old Testament
plumber and carpenter, lived down the hall in Apartment 103-A.
The rushing waters Dee was hearing at 2 a.m. in her Arizona
assisted living apartment could hardly be monsoon rains. The
climate in Arizona is different from any of the other
contiguous states; indeed, only 10-14 inches of rain falls
yearly there, most of it during the monsoon season of July
through September.
But this was late November and the sound of rushing water
somewhere in Dee's apartment filled her with such angst that
she dashed from room to room, checking the sinks, the pipes
and the walls. She even looked in the microwave. Hey, you
never know.
Could be a leaky magnetron or something.
Any minute now the walls would burst their sheet rock seams
and water would soak every single stuffed animal in her
apartment.
For a solid hour she searched, hearing the gushing waters,
fearing the inevitable. Then she called the office and yelled
for help. A little late, but whatever.
Three female caregivers rushed to her ground floor
apartment and listened intently to the roar. Their collective,
thoughtful opinion was that it originated from the second
floor bathroom immediately above Dee's apartment and would
soon pour through the ceiling, ruining their new carefully
coifed and sprayed perms.
Oh no.
Dashing to the second floor in Keystone Kops' tandem, they
bolted into the apartment above Dee's and found no water
leaks. But they could still hear the gushing noise. It was
unmistakable. It was loud and echoing. This dam, wherever it
was, was gonna break. And somebody was gonna end up really,
really wet.
Up to the third floor of this assisted living facility they
ran, praying they wouldn't be swept down three flights of
stairs on their backs by this threatening Deluge of the
Desert.
Nothing. They found nothing but still heard the mighty rush
of water.
Back to Dee's apartment they returned, this time grabbing
her phone to call the handyman who, for inexplicable reasons
known only to himself, thought 3:30 a.m. was reserved for
simple, needful sleep.
When he arrived at the facility, he quickly began a
thorough inspection of the entire building but came up with
zilch. Like the others, he was convinced that water of
significant proportions was gushing through some yet
undiscovered part of the building. Finally, back in Dee's
apartment again, the handyman crawled into a walk-in closet,
tracing the sound to the interior wall.
Then he discovered it. Are you ready for this?
From behind a stack of towels, the caregiver lifted a
ten-inch device from the shelf that reduced him to helpless
laughter.
Dee's mischievous cat, Hope, had earlier in the night
jumped to the chest-high closet shelf and through the force of
her leap activated Dee's Brookstone Sound Machine, set at full
blast volume on "Ocean Waves."
Each recorded wave roared, crested, then retreated, with
the swooshing sound of millions of gallons of water unleashed
on a helpless shore.
Dee found a hole in the floor, crawled in and pulled it in
after her, never to be heard from again. She wished.
The Brookstone flyer suggests its product "will help you
fall asleep more relaxed, sleep more soundly and awake
refreshed and ready to start your day. WARNING: Keep away from
flying felines."
Well, not really. But it should have. They don't know Dee's
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THE NO-FAIL DIET
The only sure way to make money these days in publishing is
to write a diet book. You don’t believe me? Check out your
friendly Barnes and Noble and count the number of diet books
on the shelves and tables. Or bring up diet books on
Amazon.com and prepare to sit back, stunned.
Statistically, these diets don’t work. Not the Adkins diet,
the grapefruit diet, the Hollywood diet, or a thousand others.
Ask any woman.
But remembering how thin and lean and full of energy my
sons were at two years of age, it occurred to me that a
“Terrible Twos Diet" might make the bestseller list and, only
incidentally, make me a lot of money.
It would look something like this:
Day one Breakfast; One pancake, soaked in syrup. A glass of
milk stuffed with the pancake, three pennies and a belt loop.
Lunch - 1/2 baloney sandwich covered with chocolate milk,
two buttons and a shoe lace. One dried bean stuffed up your
nose.
Dinner -1 carrot stick covered with 1/2 cup sugar. Glass of
apple juice mixed with creamed corn and paper napkin. Spread
generously over dog.
Day Two: Breakfast: 1/2 scrambled egg mixed with grape
jelly. Soak in orange juice. Pat neatly on front of stove.
Lunch - Small tube of Vaseline lip gloss. Two dried peas
stuffed in each ear. Half a green crayon. Glass of milk poured
in shoes and dumped on tray. Slurp.
Dinner - Separate macaroni from cheese and blow toward
ceiling fan Squeeze cheese in hands, roll in dog hairs and eat
with spoon.
Day Three Breakfast: Squish oatmeal through fingers, form
paste and make a face mask. Grin a lot.
Lunch: Pull letters from Campbell’s vegetable soup. Paste
on forehead and spell NGRMLX. Eat 1/2 cherry popsicle in
living room; Let drip on Windsor upholstered antique
chair.
Dinner: Pound meatloaf til flat, cover with peanut butter
and wear as hat. Spit up beans onto linoleum and march in it.
Drink half bottle vanilla extract. Pour other half in
pants.
There! That oughta do it.
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THERE IS HOPE
I wish I’d been more sympathetic to my mother.
I wish I could flip back the dog-eared pages of time to
Mother’s life when she was bent double with the torment of
unending, unrelenting chronic pain. I would tell her I love
her and I understand.
Because now I do.
I was diagnosed at Wake Forest University Medical Hospital
with a rare disease known as Erythromelalgia, a condition for
which there is no effective treatment nor any known cure. It
manifests itself in severe burning of the feet which can only
be relieved by plunging the feet in ice water many times a
day. The illness is progressive and unless a cure is found or
God chooses to perform a miracle, the burning will eventually
envelope my limbs and the trunk of my body. at which time I’ll
need to wear a body suit with tubing full of ice water,
attached to a machine.
Oddly, I am not in despair.
There are three things necessary for sustaining meaningful
life: something to hope for, something to do and someone to
love. I make sure every day I have all three.
Hope is the expectation that some desire will be fulfilled.
I have hope: hope in God, hope for eternal life and hope for
more effective treatment for this disease.
I am not a saint nor do I know many. But I have found that
hope gets me through the mind-numbing hours of pain, the
restless nights when sleep stubbornly eludes me, the days
which leave me exhausted and uncomprehending.
My friend, Dee, describes hope in her eloquent poem: “Hope
is our tomorrow, and God’s strength for today.”
To cope with pain, I make sure I also have something to do.
I fill my days with writing, with painting, with music, with
worship, with anything that will give meaning and joy and
vibrancy to my life.
Further, I always have someone to love: my heavenly Father,
my kind husband, John; my son, Johnny and his wife, Susan; my
younger son, Tim and his wife, Heather; my five darling
grandchildren, Dena, Ella, Alex, Abby and Jackson, my extended
family and many friends. They give me reason to live.
It’s true that no one knows our future but God. I like what
one person wrote about the unknown tomorrows that face us all:
When we walk to the edge of all the light we have, and take
that step into the darkness of the unknown, we must believe
that one of two things will happen: there will be something
solid for us to stand on or God will teach us how to fly."
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THINGS I NEED TO DO
I have some unfinished business.
I don’t sit and fret about how I can single-handedly bring
peace to the Balkans. I don’t stare at the phone, hoping I’ll
get a call from the president (particularly THIS president)
asking me to replace Secretary of State Madeleine Albright. I
don’t rush to my mailbox each day, looking for a letter from
the Pulitzer Committee congratulating me on a newspaper column
I wrote about eggplant.
But there are several important things I want to accomplish
before I die. Admittedly, it won’t matter to anyone but me,
unless of course I fail and my family is left to sponge up the
splatter of my failure.
I want to stand on a cliff on the island of Cypress, leap
off into 150 feet of sheer excitement on the end of a big
rubber band, accelerating from 0 to 60 mph in 2.5 seconds with
optional water touch. The water touch appeals to me. Unlike
most sports, bungee jumping allows zero margin for error and
if my rubber band breaks, I’d rather hit water than be
spread-eagle on the hard tarmac, photographed in that
unseemly, unladylike position for the front page of the
Cypress News. In color.
I want to ride a hot air balloon in Albuquerque, standing
in the wicker basket, watching as the crew attaches the
balloon to the basket, pulls it out of the bag and fills it
with air. I want to see the burner lit to heat the inside of
the balloon, bringing it gently to its feet. Then as we lift
off to anywhere from 500 to 3,000 feet, I want to wave to my
anxious husband, who knows I will either succumb to the fright
of dizzying heights or from inhaling toxic fumes. Either way,
I don’t stand a chance.
Before I depart this earth, I want to beat my sister in a
game of scrabble. She is someone for whom every game is a
mind-numbing duel to the death. This woman literally takes no
prisoners. Most people refuse to play with her, their survival
instincts forming a protective barrier around their need for
sanity. She regularly scores about 400 points per game.
On one memorable play, she quickly and nonchalantly placed
the word “quizzing” down in the lower left hand corner of the
board which brought her 225 points. I, on the other hand,
frowned, perspired, grimaced, studied and juggled my tiles for
thirty minutes and finally come up with the word “life” which
netted me six points. My sister and I obviously fished in two
completely separate gene pools. I think my mother adopted her
from a bandana-wrapped gypsy.
Before I die, I want to take violin lessons and perform The
Kreutzer Sonata of Beethoven, 3rd Movement at Lincoln Center
in New York. I want to wear a sleek black gown, and be a guest
violinist with the New York Philharmonic Orchestra. I want to
invite Itzhak Perlman to play Bach’s Concerto for 2 Violins in
D Minor with me, with all the social glitterati of New York
gazing up at us in wonder and awe. But I wonder if I should
first learn to read music, a simple concept which has always
eluded me.
And finally, I want to learn to scuba dive. At one time,
Jacques Cousteau trained to be a pilot but an accident damaged
his arm, leaving him unable to fly, so he invented scuba. WOW.
Lucky for me. And just in time, too. So, equipped with my
Aeroskin dive suit (size 6 of course), my Zeagle’s analog
diving instruments and my Fisher Metal Detector, I want to
leap from a charter boat near the coast of Cozumel, that
splendid tourist attraction in Mexico.
I’ll confidently descend into the deep, float through a
myriad of tunnels of sunken shipwrecks, retrieving enough gold
coins and artifacts to pay for my hospitalization after I am
dragged babbling and incoherent to the surface, scared
senseless by my sudden remembrance that I’m a raging
claustrophobic and I never even learned how to swim.
Hmmmm. Is basket-weaving hard?
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TWIST AND SHOUT
When my young friend Karen told me she was “really into
praise and worship” at her church in West Virginia, I smiled.
But one day, Karen apparently gave new definition to the
term “twist and shout” and her church is still laughing about
it.
Karen is a genuinely likable, pretty woman in her early
forties whose warmth is only exceeded by the sun’s. Someone
needs to clone her. She would rather be in church than any
place on earth. And she’s there every single time the doors
open and her fragile health permits.
Getting dressed one night for church, she was unsure
whether her black silk skirt was suitable. Her friend, Joan,
reassured her and off they went to the church service where
twenty-six people were ready for baptism.
Karen and Joan chose seats in the second row from the
front; they were that eager to be part of the service. The
large sanctuary and balcony were both packed as usual in this
large, active 2000 member church.
After some spirited congregational singing, the baptismal
service began. Shouting and singing accompanied each person
who was baptized, with the congregation on its feet praising
the Lord.
Karen stood in her pew, clapping, singing, keeping time
with the loud music with her feet like everyone else. By her
own admission, she was “really into it.” Karen explained,
“That night the whole church was having a time. This woman got
baptized and her 87-year-old granddad and grandmom got up and
started dancing, they were so happy. He was a minister and had
been praying for this young woman all her life.”
Suddenly, someone behind Karen tapped her on the shoulder.
Her first thought was, “EXCUSE ME, but I am praisin’ the Lord
here!” But the lady behind her tapped Karen on the shoulder
again.
Karen finally turned around to face the lady who said,
“Excuse me, ma’am, but do you have a skirt on?”
Karen quickly looked down and all she saw was her green
sweater and her panty hose. She let out a scream which was
heard above the amplified music still going at full volume.
Grabbing a coat belonging to a little boy sitting next to her,
she threw it over her head and sat down.
Her friend Joan, convulsed with a mixture of laughter and
horror, crawled under the pew to search for Karen’s black silk
skirt. It was nowhere to be found. Karen progressed from panic
to near heart failure. She knew everyone in the balcony had
seen her and likely several hundred people sitting behind
her.
All at once, Karen reached up to straighten her sweater and
there in a roll around her waist was her black silk skirt.
There was a good ending to her story, though. The three
young men sitting behind her made a hasty decision that this
was the church of their dreams and they joined the next Sunday
morning.
And a new, exciting chapter for the manual, “Innovative
Ways To Increase Church Membership” was rushed into print.
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VIOLETS
Quietly, Mother picked up her purse and closed the front
door behind her. Walking slowly down the street, she tried to
pace herself for the long hike ahead. Our father was
recovering from surgery in the local hospital and would be
eagerly awaiting her visit.
With no car of her own and no public transportation, Mother
walked this considerable distance every afternoon, forcing her
own pain into the farthest recesses of her mind. Every step
added new agony to her arthritic hips and shoulders, back and
legs. Indeed, every part of her body screamed for relief but
none was forthcoming.
Passing the halfway mark on her walk, she stopped briefly
to admire a young girl playing alone on her lawn. They
exchanged greetings and Mother continued toward the
hospital.
Soon, pausing to chat with the child became a daily ritual
that Mother began to anticipate. It was a treasured few
moments in her otherwise long and painful errand every
afternoon.
On the last day of Mother’s walk to the hospital, the
blonde child was waiting. Her hands were behind her back, a
bright smile highlighting her flawless face.
“I have a present for you,” she said shyly. “Take these to
your daddy in the hospital.”
In her cupped hands were a freshly-picked bouquet of
lavender and white violets, gathered from the wide expanse of
her lawn.
Mother held the violets, bending her head while her tears
fell in droplets on the delicate petals in her grasp.
Hugging the child, Mother whispered, “As long as I live, I
will look on this as one of the sweetest things anyone has
ever done for me.”
She continued her long walk, momentarily forgetting her
pain and inhaling the sweet fragrance of spring in her hand.
There was indeed a God and He had chosen a caring child to
tenderly apply the balm of grace and healing to her tired,
hurting heart.
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WAS NOAH’S ARK MADE OF FRUITCAKE?
Fruitcake is an anomaly. It’s neither fruit nor cake. It’s
main ingredients are dark, rotted barn boards and tar. Science
hasn’t yet identified those hard, little chunky things in a
fruitcake; likely, they’re parts of a meteor that crashed and
burned somewhere in an Idaho pasture in 8,000 B.C.
If you still have a gift fruitcake sitting on your
breakfast bar, let me offer a suggestion. Don’t eat it and
don’t toss it out with your other garbage. Treat it like what
it is: hazardous waste material which needs to be disposed of
with care so it doesn’t further pollute the environment.
Needless to say, I didn’t get a gift certificate this year
from any major fruit cake companies. The only time I purchased
one of their fruitcakes, I returned it for refund with this
note attached: “If I promise to eat your fruitcake, will you
promise to roto-root my tummy?” I didn’t receive either their
written promise or a refund.
Fruitcake has been around since Roman times when the recipe
included pomegranate seeds, pine nuts and raisins mixed into
barley mash. Legend tells us Queen Victoria received a
fruitcake for her birthday and vowed not to eat it for a year
as a sign of restraint. I suspect she made that promise to the
donor, but secretly had the cake pounded and packed into
bullet casings to destroy Briton’s enemies. That’s how the
Brits won the war. Don’t ask which war.
I was shocked when I read that Harry and David (my favorite
fruit company) marketed a fruitcake confection this Christmas
that got the top recommendation from Consumer Reports magazine
resulting in sales of nearly 100,000 fruitcakes. But that
hardly makes a dent in Claxton Fruitcakes which sells over 4
million pounds of fruitcake a year. I suspect they also hold
the patent on Pepto-Bismol.
I guess I could look more favorably on fruitcake if it
weren’t for the citron which comes from a thorny evergreen
shrub in India, known for its large lemon- like fruits that
have thick, warty rinds. Nobody on earth has a passion for
thick, warty rinds which is why you find them in fruitcakes.
Citron is used in fruitcakes to fill in the spaces between the
small chunks of fossilized coal and sodden, decomposed grapes.
In any other bakery product, those grapes would be called
raisins, but they lose every recognizable property in
fruitcakes.
I checked the web and was startled to see 9,580 sites about
fruitcakes. Most were passionate pleas to give fruitcakes
their just due. One web site was named “The Society for the
Preservation and Promotion of Fruitcakes.” It was a
desperation survival attempt by a group of bakers about to
lose their collective shirts.
During Christmas, several million fruitcakes are unwrapped
by groaning recipients who inwardly vow to get even with the
donor. If you were one of the unlucky ones, here are some
things you might do with your fruitcake: Use it for a door
stop, a home plate, a hammer, a paper weight, for landfill,
bricks for a bomb shelter, a foot rest, a manhole cover, an
anvil, an anchor for your large Hatteras yacht, or liquefy it
and power a Boeing 757 passenger plane.
About 7500 years ago, a massive flood occurred which was
recorded in minute detail in Genesis 6. Noah and his family
escaped the flood by building an ark and sequestering
themselves in it for the duration. I know this isn’t exactly
scriptural but I’ve wondered if that ark was made of
fruitcake. I mean, the ark was thick, compressed, and durable
(just like fruitcake). It was dark and moist (just like
fruitcake). It was impenetrable and inedible (just like
fruitcake). And here’s the kicker: The ark might still be
around (just like thousand-year-old fruitcake).
On October 18, DigitalGlobe launched the world's
highest-resolution commercial imaging satellite. This
QuickBird satellite will take several shots of what many
consider to be the remains of Noah's ark. This should finally
resolve whether there’s anything man made on Mount
Ararat. Aha. Fruitcake, anyone?
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WHERE WERE MY FRIENDS?
I was in a hurry. A big hurry! My son had called from the
mall where he was employed to request that I bring his lunch
pronto. He only had a few minutes between customers to grab a
sandwich and get back to work.
Dutiful mother that I was, I made his favorite pastrami on
rye, pulled a navy sweater from the dryer to throw around my
shoulders and drove hastily to the mall.
It was a lovely day. The kind that makes you sing whether
you want to or not. After parking the car, I hurried into the
mall which was busy with shoppers and office workers who were
headed to their favorite restaurant for lunch.
Everyone was in a good mood. What a delightful crowd.
Several men directly behind me were laughing uproariously,
probably sharing some inside office joke. It was a great day
to be alive. God was in His heaven and all was right with the
world.
I hummed quietly to myself as I walked through the
mall:
“Oh, what a beautiful morning, oh, what a beautiful day,
I’ve got a wonderful feeling, everything’s going my
way...”
After handing the bag lunch to my son, I headed back down
the long mall corridors, stopping to look in the windows at
shoes, at new spring outfits, and in the pet store window to
wave to the puppies who scrambled over each other vying for my
attention.
I still heard lots of laughter and wished someone were
along to laugh with me. For some reason, people take a dim
view of those who laugh aloud by themselves. My spirits were
high as I finally headed back toward my car. In the
parking lot, an elderly lady approached me, took my arm and
whispered, “My dear, I don’t want to embarrass you but did you
know a pair of your white silk underwear is spread all across
the back of your navy sweater?”
I died. Right there in the parking lot. My humiliation was
so great that a giant hole appeared in the concrete and an
unseen force pulled me through it, never to be heard from
again. In my dreams!
This kind lady peeled my underwear from my sweater and
handed them to me, whispering two words now forever carved
into my memory with the excruciating pain of a rusty, jagged
knife: “Static cling.”
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WHERE’S THE BIG YELLOW BOAT?
If there’s one thing Huggy Bear Thornton of Carolina Beach
doesn’t have to worry about, it’s the Coast Guard asking him
to enlist. They may even have his name on a Wanted Poster. Or
wish they could.
Cap’n Huggy Bear has been in some tight spots with his
fishing boat, fondly named “The Big Yellow Boat,” but he’s a
good captain and his friends trust his knowledge of the sea.
What his boat lacks in a creative name, it makes up for in
dependability and a touch of notoriety.
Ask my husband John and his friend Harry G. They know all
about Huggy Bear’s Big Yellow Boat. They were treated to a
Perfect Storm experience about twenty miles out on the ocean
last summer when twelve foot high waves, rain, thunder and
lightning threatened to send Cap’n Huggy Bear and his
companions to a very deep and very watery early grave.
Promising to offer his friends better protection or at
least let their relatives know where to locate his boat should
it ever sink, Huggy Bear purchased an EPIRB on Ebay. For the
uninitiated (which is ninety-nine percent of the world), an
EPIRB stands for Emergency Position Indicating Radio Beacon.
When this small device is activated, it emits an emergency
signal which is picked up by satellites and transmitted via
land-based receivers to the Coast Guard.
All EPIRBS are a last resort safety measure for Mayday use
only by boat captains who fear they are going down and want
the little woman back home to know where to toss flowers after
the memorial service.
At 4:00 pm on a recent Wednesday afternoon, the Coast Guard
received the emergency signal indicating that a boat was in
distress and likely to go down. Its EPIRB registration had not
yet been filed with the Coast Guard, giving the owner’s name
and other vital information, though the boat’s owner was
working on the registration.
Revving up their helicopters and boats, the Coast Guard
raced toward Carolina Beach for an urgent search and rescue
mission. Up and down the coast the helicopters flew. Back and
forth from the beach to several miles out on the ocean the
Coast Guard boats carefully searched. They found nothing. But
the EPIRB kept beeping its steady, unrelenting signal and the
Coast Guard was ordered to continue its search.
For eighteen long hours this went on with zip results, the
pilots and boat captains working feverishly, searching with
spotlights all through the night.
At Steve’s Bait and Tackle Shop the next morning at 11
a.m., owner Steve watched a man emerge from his car carrying a
hand-held directional finder, a device resembling a divining
rod. Ignoring Steve, the man followed the signal which slowly
led him to the parking lot behind Steve’s store.
“I found it.” the man said tersely into a cell phone.
What he found was The Big Yellow Boat on its trailer parked
in its usual place behind Steve’s where it had rested for
several days.
On board was a malfunctioning EPIRB, beeping a steady
distress signal to the Coast Guard receiver.
Steve immediately phoned Huggy Bear who had been unaware of
the search and was as innocent as the proverbial lamb. The
night before, he had had a quiet dinner with his wife,
stretched out for an evening of television, then moseyed on to
bed. He didn’t hear about the search until it was over the
next morning.
Huggy Bear hasn’t asked the Coast Guard how many thousands
of dollars were spent on this futile eighteen-hour search. As
big-hearted as Huggy Bear is, he just plain doesn’t wanna
know.
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YARD SAILING
If yard sales were held at docks up and down the inland
waterway, these three amigos would set sail at 2:00 a.m. and
put down anchor at every single one of them. For if there’s
anything these guys like better than boats, it’s yard
sales.
Around 6:00 every Saturday morning, Harry G., John and
Huggy Bear meet at McDonald’s for their usual industrial
strength coffee, chat and gossip with the rest of “the guys”
and begin plotting their Saturday morning foray. With a
newspaper spread over an already cluttered table, they
underline, highlight and color code in a manner that would put
the average housewife to shame.
Finally, they pile their husky frames into John’s Izusu and
head out with their pockets full of loose change, and resolve
in their scheming hearts.
Using their folded newspaper as a road map, they stop at a
well-appointed house, park in front and head for the fold-up
tables staggering under the load of assorted cast off
household items and used clothing piled on them.
John sees it first, which puts Harry G immediately in a bad
mood: a bright red jacket with an emblem stitched near the
collar and a $1.00 sticker affixed to the front. John asks the
bewildered lady how much she wants for this fifty cents item
and if she’ll gift wrap it.
Harry G has never met a teddy bear he didn’t like. He buys
every bear he sees, some with dried baby drool still on them.
So far, he’s accumulated sixty. Although he hasn’t admitted
it, Harry G’s dream is to discover among cluttered yard sale
items an original 1950s $2300 Steiff teddy bear which he can
purchase for about a dollar from an unsuspecting young mother
who doesn’t know beans about Steiffs.
John finally picks up a winter jacket marked $1.50,
inspects it and remarks, “This is a terrific buy. I don’t need
it but if I don’t buy it , I’ll lose money.” He asks the lady
to set up a time-payment plan. The guys fail to find the one
item they’re still looking for: a 400 pound iron wrecking ball
and hook to demolish cars and trucks.
Heading up the road, they spot a house, set far back from
the street with a “Yard Sale” sign nailed to a fence post.
With no place to park, John drives across the side lawn, only
to hear Huggy Bear’s rebuke, “John, get off the lawn, for
Pete’s sake.” John replies nonchalantly, “Don’t worry; I got
four-wheel drive.”
They rummage through shirts, tools, assorted cans of paint,
leaving the tables in more disarray than when they arrived.
Giving each other the “This one is a waste of time” signal,
they pile back into the Isuzu and drive down the block to the
next advertised sale.
This time they hit pay dirt: Huggy Bear buys a pair of
shoes he’ll never wear, Harry G. adds another teddy to his
collection, and John pays fifty cents for a shirt that’s too
small but will fit once he loses forty pounds.
Collectively they have purchased a weed-eater that doesn’t
work, some jewelry they hope to pass off as antique and
therefore precious, a half roll of sandpaper, two candle
holders made from sea glass, a vinyl suitcase with a broken
zipper, a bronzed baby shoe, a box of greeting cards with no
envelopes, and a toilet plunger with wedding bells, ribbons
and a card attached reading, “We’ve taken the plunge.”
Wow. All this and heaven, too.
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SATURDAY WITH MY DAD
Daddy placed his straw hat on his shiny bald head and
picked up his dog-eared Bible. I groaned. He asked me to tag
along while he visited the sick and afflicted at the local
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